15.10.15

The Lies and Lows of Kerri Rivera


The Lies and Lows of Kerri Rivera

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I have long been following with mounting horror the CD Protocol recommended by Jim Humble and then recommended by Kerri Rivera in the book ‘Healing the symptoms known as Autism’.

IMG_7489In this book read by thousands of desperate parents who have been brainwashed by the Autism Speaks mentality that autism is a disease or sickness she recommends using Chlorine Dioxide bleach to ‘heal’ autism.

She alleges that parasitic rope worms in the children’s intestines and bowels are causing the children to be autistic. To rid them of their autism which she likens to ‘being in chains’ she has set out a strict diet and protocol.

It includes using CD in baths, sprays and internal enemas.

The result of this as you can see in attached links and screenshots is shedding of bowel lining, excess mucous from the bowel, green stools, abdominal pain and internal bleeding, nosebleeds, seizures and hair loss. Teeth turning black, sores and rashes, nails flaking, kidney failure and dehydration.

IMG_7486Apparently this is all part and parcel of the cleansing affects of CD, the detoxification and ‘die off’ of the worms. Kerri also has affectionately named the time of the full moon as P.O. W which stands for Pissed off Worms which related to the apparent deterioration of behaviours in autistic children ate for full moon times.

Someone recently pointed out that by an amazing coincidence POW also stands for Prisoners Of War, which these children are.

They are victims of the parents who are meant to care for them, keep them safe yet have been abusing them with bleach and anally raping them with no care of the privacy they invade nor the pain the inflict.

Rivera counsels and admins a group called CD Autism in which she gives advice to parents who use this deadly protocol on their children.

IMG_7485In the attached screenshots you will see the advice handed out and please be aware, this woman has no medical training of an kind. Advising on children being dosed as young as ten months old up to vulnerable adults being restrained by family members who strongly believe they can and will heal them.

Also please be aware that Rivera is the mother of an autistic son on whom she has used HBOT, Chelation, GcMAF and CD for over five years.

Also please be aware he is still very much autistic.

I’ve been lucky enough to be given the right to use an interview with Rivera by a journalist called Julianna Siemssen, who works for the Tacoma Ledger and who’s original article is linked below. My thanks to her for allowing me to use her questions and quotes below, good strong questions and some truly sickening answers.

The Interview.

Q. Describe the treatments you recommend for autism.

A .The treatments are well documented in my book, Healing the Symptoms Known as Autism. We do a special diet with therapies that kill (cleanse) pathogens (virus, bacteria, candida, heavy metals and parasites) and deals with inflammation.

 

Q. What is your affiliation with the Genesis II Church of Health and Healing?

IMG_7476A. We all use chlorine dioxide for healing illnesses.

 

Q. How does the diet you recommend work?

A. gluten free and casein free diet helps to stop inflammation as well as eliminating proteins that are semi digested from going into the brain.

 

Q. Why do you refer to chlorine dioxide as “CD” instead of by its chemical formula, ClO2?

A. ClO2 is Chlorine Dioxide…which is long to say if you use the words frequently. So, we just say CD.

 

Q. Chlorine dioxide is used in the process of bleaching paper, and the people who work with it take extensive precautions to protect themselves, since it’s a toxic chemical. Why do you consider it safe to use?”

A.Everything is poisonous, nothing is poisonous, it is all a matter of dose” as Paracelsus is quoted to have said.

 

Q. What role do you believe the full moon plays in autism?

A. Parasites are a big issue in autism. Parasites from their toxins cause symptoms known as autism.

 

IMG_7480Q. What is “biofilm defence”?

A. An enzyme that breaks up biofilm.

 

Q. What is GcMAF?

A. How does it work?

 

Q. What about hyperbaric oxygen therapy? What does that do to cure autism?

A. HBOT helps to bring down inflammation in the brain and is very helpful in healing autism.

 

Q. Why do you think that most doctors do not endorse these treatments?

A. These are relatively cheap and mostly a do-it-yourself protocol. And there are a lot of doctors who do not promote it for fear of being stripped of their license or murdered as we have seen in the USA with doctors curing autism and cancer alternatively. But, they support the families just the same. And there are a large number of doctors internationally that do my protocol. So, it is only in the USA and UK where the medical boards only want people doing treatments approved for autism where there really isn’t any.

 

Q. If you cured over 180 children of autism, and you consider their parents’ testimonies to be proof, why did you agree to stop promoting MMS in Illinois despite that proof?

A. 190 people between the ages of 2 and 32 have lost the diagnosis of autism with the protocol. There are even more that this. However, since it is a do-it-yourself approach. I don’t get the opportunity to know them all. Plus, there are practitioners/doctors around the world having success with the protocol in their own clinics and offices.

 

IMG_7479Q. What is so bad about someone flapping their hands, running in circles, or not making eye contact with you?

A. Well, the biggest problem is that we had a completely healthy child before a vaccine and then this happens. It is very hard for someone to learn and develop if all they do it flap, run and never make eye contact. Plus, these are only symptoms. What is happening in the gut and brain is the big picture. The flapping etc is a symptom.

 

Q. Why didn’t you try to figure out other ways of helping your son communicate–for example, providing him with a letter board, or teaching him sign language?

A. Who told you I didn’t?

 

Q. All children grow and develop, including autistic children. Is it possible that the improvements people are seeing are developments that would have happened anyways?

A. I wish. But, as you would see if you wanted the work of another pioneer in this field, Robin Goffe…her son was a very high functioning person with autism till puberty struck. Then he became severe. And as she found with this protocol, he was highly infested with parasites.

 

IMG_7477Q. Do you think it is better to give children dangerous chemicals than for them to be autistic?

A.What about deadly diseases prevented by vaccines?

 

Q. Are those better than autism?

A. If you don’t consider chlorine dioxide or other chemicals to be dangerous, okay, but if you did would you still recommend it?I think the word dangerous makes this question hard to answer. Paracelsus is spot on about that. Too much water and we die also. I recommend what I see working over and over again. ZERO dead…so, how dangerous is a drop of Chlorine Dioxide (ClO2)?

 

Q. (This is not a question of whether the protocols you recommend are dangerous. If you believe they are not, imagine you have a choice between requiring your child to ingest a chemical they you do believe is toxic, and having that child be autistic.)

A. The children get healthier and some even recover. “Toxic”??

 

Q. How do you think autistic people would react to that response?  

IMG_7474A. If people with autism can have an opinion then they do not need to be recovered from anything. And my son with regressive autism is very different then a person who can protest and boycott.

 

Q. There have been deaths linked to chelation, and hyperbaric oxygen therapy can cause pain, paralysis, and embolism. In light of this information, why do you continue to promote these as “treatments” for autistic children?

A. There were 2 children who were given an IV push of EDTA for adults. This goes back to what Paracelsus said. There was the wrong product and wrong application…medical doctor error. And HBOT does not cause pain unless there is an ear infection of which needs to be rectified before the treatment. HBOT is great for CP and removing paralysis. As for an embolism, the chamber will not cause it, but the opposite.

 

Q. Similarly, chlorine dioxide is used as an industrial bleach, and has been proven to cause nausea, vomiting, and even life-threatening drops in blood pressure. When administered rectally, it causes intestines to bleed and shed their lining. You are aware of this information, calling the vomiting a “Herxheimer reaction” and claiming that the intestinal lining is actually a type of parasite. Why, then, do you continue to promote it?

A. No one has has ever died from using CD. Nausea and vomiting are a Herxheimer reaction to going to fast in any detoxification protocol. And as for drops in blood pressure, I am not familiar with this together with CD and there are over 30,000 people on social media alone doing this protocol. So…if it were happening, I would have seen it.

 

IMG_7473Q. In your words, there are “tens of thousands” of people using your protocol, while only 186 have been healed. That’s 1.86% at most–significantly less than the effects of a placebo, which has been shown to work 35% of the time at treating diseases. Why do you believe that you are effectively treating autism?

A. Autism is a very difficult diagnosis to treat/cure/heal. Most doctors are getting zero recoveries and changing tens of thousands of dollars. But, all of the people who do the protocol get better and see improvements.

 

Q. If you were autistic, would you consent to this treatment?

A. Of course.

 

Q. Do you value autistic people?

A. I value human life, of course. Heck, I value life in general. We use this with our pets too.

 

Q. Do you think our society values their existence?

A. I have no idea.

 

Q. Many autistic adults are opposed to the idea of a cure for autism, including those who cannot speak, are intellectually disabled, or are otherwise considered low-functioning. What do you think gives you the right to speak over them?

A. The people who I help are not able to boycott and oppose ideas. They are too busy with issues like running in circles, banging their heads, crying, not sleeping, having diarrhoea chronically for years, totally non verbal etc etc…the people with regressive autism are not protesting and cannot do these types of high functioning things. These are 2 very different groups of people.

So apparently people who are non verbal, head bang, have diarrhoea, cry and don’t sleep have no feelings and are not worthy of an opinion.

They could not possibly be having these behaviours due to having a colon full of bleach?

IMG_7472I shall leave it up to you to decide but I leave you with these questions….how did these so called parasites infest these children? And it’s highly suspect that as seen in attached screenshots you are advised not to seek medical help nor inform anyone you are using this on your child.

Why? Because it’s child abuse.

I’m an autistic and proud to be one.

Yes I have challenges as do my autistic children. It also give us a world view that’s untainted by the relentless need to make money, the all devouring need to change and alter people.

We do not fit in and that unfortunately scares some people.

With the right inclusive surroundings and understanding we as neurodiverse individuals flourish. We live in a world that can be to bright, to loud and bewildering.

With sensory therapies and help with communication we can do very well.

Acceptance and inclusion is what we need and is our entitlement as human beings.

To Rivera be aware that to say the children and adults you recommend this anal rape torturous treatment be used on are not able to have ideas you are sorely mistaken, though you are correct they cannot boycott.

They are vulnerable, they are abused.

They are autistics.

And you? You deserve to be in jail.

You are qualified in nothing you have shown with your callousness that you do not deserve a right to have an opinion IMG_7487on the views of autistics.

Ones like me whom are able to verbalise, to challenge you are called Pharma shills and told we are to weak to heal ourselves, to heal our children.

What you do not see, will not see is we are not injured, ill or damaged.

We are not an epidemic wreaking havoc.

You are.

Please click here to sign a petition for legislation against the use of MMS.

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Rivera talks

13.10.15

The match, the shirt and the Haribo stand


The match, the shirt and the Haribo stand.

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The match, the shirt and the Haribo stand.

My son passionately supports a well known football team.

I personally don’t have a preference with football teams but it’s an interest that has helped him with number recognition, understanding boundaries and rules and gives him a sense camaraderie.

20151003_165832My son is eight and autistic, he has complex special needs and is normally a happy little boy.

If they win a game he’s ecstatically happy, but if they lose……devastation. Tears and a sense of the world ending, nothing will ever be alright again.

The meltdown of the type where sense ( they will play again they will win again) and reason ( sometimes his team won’t win that’s the way it goes) play no part in the whirling black tornado of horror he finds himself in.

We recently went on holiday and his team were playing a prominent team who were in with a good chance of possibly winning.

It would be shown on Sky and we would have to watch it in the main building restaurant as we did not have Sky sports in the caravan we were staying in.

I suggested we not go and find out afterwards but this was not negotiable and that was made clear by the indignation that followed.

My boy was extremely worried about this.

What would happen if they lost?

Where would we sit?

Would there be other fans who supported his team?

Would there be fans of the opposing team there?

Could he have a slushee?

After much reassurance he agreed that we would sit at the front of the restaurant nearest to the tv but on the side.

If they started to lose or if at any point he felt unable to cope we would leave immediately.

I had my bag open and ready to sweep key and purse into and had managed to settle my younger daughter who’s also autistic but not yet diagnosed into a seat with my phone happily watching Disney’s Frozen on YouTube.

A pleasant site security guard had noticed my boys football shirt and remarked in a friendly manner that my sons favourite  would probably win anyway which made my son giggle.

The match started and he’s bouncing in his seat, commentating each move and every player, then it happened.

The first goal went in by  the opposing team and the security guard let out a loud “Yes!”,

My boy shot me an agonised look and began chewing his fingers.

I cursed myself for not bringing his chewy tube.

“ It’s ok sweetheart”, I said calmly “ Don’t worry,” but exactly thirty seconds later the next goal from the other team went in. The cheers this time were  all over the place.

My son shot out of his seat completely panicked looking like a trapped fox cornered by hounds.

I swept the bits into the bag picked my girl up and grabbed his hand, we left within ten seconds, I was pretty proud of myself!

We got outside before the tears began and I held him tight, reassuring him that we would have a play in the park while he calmed down. The sun was out,  it was a lovely warm evening.

The repeated scripting started, my sons way of regulating himself as he commentated what he had seen of the match and I waited patiently till the tears stopped and he grounded himself.

I suggested we go to the nearby shop and get them both an ice cream to cheer him up.

He ran eagerly into the shop and bent down to look at the Minion Kinder Eggs.

A man with three children entered who also went to look, I looked around and saw the bread I would need for the mornings toast on the shelf so I grabbed my daughters hand and took her with me. My girl is three and a runner, the door to the shop was wide open and outside was a car park.

I’m now at the till and the children have chosen an ice cream from the freezer each when another man enters.

He was approximately fifty five years old, smartly dressed and looked immediately at my sons football shirt.

The man walked over to my son who’s standing next to me holding his ice cream,  leaned forward into his face and said loudly:

“ You want to get that shirt of don’t ya?!” Then laughed loudly.

My sons eyes immediately welled up and he looked at me.

I looked at the man in complete shock and said “ Please don’t!” Then put my hand over my face in a gesture of ‘ What the hell?’

“ What?” He said loudly “They are losing three nil!”.

The man with the children looked startled.

And that’s when my son pushed the man with all his might into the Haribo display sweet stand.

He then ran to me and buried his face in my chest arms tightly wrapped around my waist.

The man said staggered up and bellowed “ You want it  do ya?” Plainly furious and staring at my son.

I was sure I had misheard and said “Sorry what?” .

He repeated “ You want it? He just pushed me into that sweet stand what you going to do about it?!”.

Man with children has said loudly to them “ Come away now”, and pulled them well away from the man.

I grabbed my daughter hefted my bag onto my shoulder and said clearly, “ Nothing.”

I then left as fast as possible, my son was shaking and tearful my daughter protesting at being dragged out of another place so rapidly.

I left my change and literally ran them out.

Don’t get me wrong I can argue till the cows come home but this man had offered me out for a fight in a shop with a son who was on the verge of melting down the door was open and my girl as I said is a runner.

My son was terrified and we got back to the caravan and I put him in a warm shower to calm down.

I then explained you can’t shove people into sweet displays.

That if he did that when he was older police would be called, that you can’t just put your hands on people because you don’t agree with what they are saying.

He replied he just wanted him to stop.

I also thought of what I could have done differently and came to the conclusion there was nothing I could have done.

This was not a man who wanted banter, there was no playfulness or sense of teasing in his voice.

He had wanted to embarrass and humiliate my eight year old son.

I had said to him “ Please don’t!” And he had looked back into my sons face.

My son was shaking his eyes were full of tears and his lips were trembling.

He still looked straight into his eyes and sniped “What?! They are losing three nil.”

He knew what he was doing and he enjoyed it.

Why? Who knows.

Why would any one bait and taunt an eight year old child who’s team was losing and who was plainly distressed?

Worse still offer the mother out for a physical fight in front of five children in a small corner shop?

I wondered if I should have attempted to apologise, to explain my son is autistic?

But no.

Why would I? This was the type of individual who would have insulted my son further and the fact he had continued to taunt my son despite me asking him not to meant to me that the chance of an apology was not in the running.

So next time there’s a match on, and you see a child or even someone who may be a vulnerable adult think before you mock them.

Think before you taunt,  as they may shove you into a Haribo stand.

9.10.15

Bishop by day…


Bishop by day…

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Emma has received this information and write up from an anonymous writer known as TruthSayer. The below is penned by TruthSayer as received by Emma.

 

Bishop By Day…..

Leonardo Edwards has made a name for himself, a respected member of the Genesis Two Church recently ordained a IMG_7375Bishop and close personal friend of the originator Jim Humble.

He counts among his friends prominent public figures such as  Kerri Rivera, author of Healing The Symptoms Known As Autism and Andreas Kackler.

For a over a year my interest has been Bishop Leonardo Edwards, more specifically how to bring him down. Leonardo is a snake oil procurer, he sells the creation Jim Humble dreamt up Miracle Mineral Solution. MMS is made consists of Sodium Chlorite and Citric Acid and for the fee of £120 Leonardo will come and meet you for a one hour consultation and demonstrate how to mix it together thus creating Chlorine Dioxide.

He will tell you that it cures all ills, diseases and ailments from earache applied into the ear canal with a dropper to rashes where you would apply in a spray.

Leonardo will recommend that  this solution more commonly used for bleaching wood pulp and purifying swimming pool water can cure Cancer, Ebola and Malaria.

He will promise it can bring health to arthritis sufferers and heal hepatitis.

The proof of these miraculous recoveries are not to be found in any medical journal nor in any hospital records. No peer group revised papers will prove this to you but as he says in the interview attached there are many YouTube testimonials.

This in itself is obviously extremely concerning with no one seemingly willing to take responsibility for this criminal activity.

The MHRA state that MMS is being used as a food supplement so recommend you report it to the FSA.

IMG_7373The FSA say it’s a medicine and send you back to MHRA.

They both also recommend Trading Standards. While all this bouncing back and forth is happening we have individuals like Leonardo selling a harmful highly toxic chemical bleach on multiple websites.

Leonardo, to me most worryingly is an advisor in the CD Autism group along with Kerri Rivera.

Yes that stands for Chlorine Dioxide.

In this FB support group, and others including MMS England and MMS Scotland he advises parents of special needs children mostly diagnosed Autistic some with the extra challenges of Sensory Issues and Learning Difficulties. Many of these children are unable to verbally communicate.

Leonardo advises the Kackler protocol of enemas which is in Kerri Rivera’s book. The book gives the  misinformation to vulnerable misguided parents that Autism is caused by parasitic rope worms living in the intestines.

Like a gruesome fairy tale these worms she extols have caused these children to become autistic, they become more active on Full Moon nights and she has even named this phenomena.

P. O. W. Stands for Pissed Off Worms.

On POW nights children may make more self stimulatory noises to self soothe and have more meltdowns. This is more likely due to the fact they are given more doses of CD at this time then mythical rope worms causing the behaviours.

The administration of CD is recommended in the following ways:

Enema

Spray

In a bath

Inhalation

IMG_7372Children are being given repeated enemas with purified water containing Chlorine Dioxide/ MMS/ bleach to ‘heal’ the neurological difference they have been born with.

This leads to stripping of the bowel, excess mucous and green bowel movements plus excessive cramping and agonising pain.

They are being forced to inhale it in hot steamy bathroom causing breathlessness resulting finally in lung damage.

They are being made to bathe in it and are sprayed with it in the eyes and on wounds on the skin caused by it.

Parents post that their children are unable to move or walk due to pain after enemas. That they have turned yellow, have blue lips, have developed blisters and rashes.

That they cry and make more noise then usual and are developing more violent behaviours.

Occasionally there are posts where a parent confides that their partner is worried by this and wishes to stop using it on the child.

IMG_7371On many of these posts is Leonardo, dutifully selling his wares of glass NUK baby bottles, enema kits and MMS more commonly called CD in the group.

He was exposed by the BBC whom exposed Leonardo selling to an undercover reporter on June 11th in the middle of Kings Cross train station. The reporter had told Leonardo it was for his autistic nephew. He is seen mixing these chemicals in public with not a care in the world. He was again exposed by the BBC this September selling to an undercover 85 yr old woman telling her it could cure her arthritis and Cancer.

He was also exposed in the Trinity Mirror and subsequently The Mirror.

I am now left with little choice but to reveal the Bishop of the Genesis Two Church who sells the sacrament known as MMS has some very questionable past times.

He professes to be able to heal the sick, expose the truth on Big Pharma and leads to all visible extents and purposes a clean, respectable Bishop like lifestyle.

He regularly visits his mentor Jim Humble and has many pictures with him beaming with pride with his arm around his pretty girlfriend in various locations of the world.

Leonardo has and appears on many websites including Leonardoshealingspace.com, Leonardoshealingspace.com.is and this questionable website here where he calls himself Lost It Leon and  lists his likes and requirements as dogging the practice of watching others engage in sexual activity through their car windows in car parks. Group sex and consensual sex between older couples, threesomes and sexual intercourse on camera.

Be very clear this article is not to shame or humiliated his man.

It is to show that a man who professes to be a Bishop of a non religious cult church who advises parents of autistic children some to use Chlorine Dioxide bleach in enemas inside their bodies also enjoys peering into window in shady car parks.

He is not respectable he is an opportunist, a leech and a man who feed on the agonies of children.

This has been a long time coming I have sat on this information for three months.

IMG_7370Why? Because people will defend his right to privacy.

He advised a parent using Turpentine and CD on his autistic five year old son  on Sept 8th in the CD group making arrangements for payment by email for the parent to continue to purchase MMS from him.

I apologise to Leonardo Edwards in advance that I have no remorse in doing my upmost to expose him and stop him a using children by whatever means I can.

If that makes me wrong I will never be right or wish to be.

 

June BBC exposè http://youtu.be/ZYdMzBOyb8E

September exposè BBC http://youtu.be/HB-myx_ce9k

Leon’s story http://youtu.be/n6sRu57V17U

Leonardo interview http://youtu.be/v1XT6uIRziU

8.10.15

Growing Up as A Rainbow Girl


Growing Up as A Rainbow Girl

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I can remember running, the large black tyre hit me from behind and took me down in one fell swoop.

My nose stung and I cried, no one saw and I went and sat down on a brick wall. I knew my mother wasn’t there. If I was quiet and didn’t tell I would be left alone until the next time.

I had learnt that at aged four, and the boy who then bullied me knew it.

IMG_1071I had one friend in nursery, a boy who never spoke. He would play only with me and had a a Buck Rogers comic he carried everywhere. We would climb behind the confined space of the nursery and sit quietly not speaking completely content in our own silence until the teachers would shatter it.

I had a little boyfriend to, whom I pursued relentlessly as he was completely different to the other boys. He had a glass eye that he would happily take out and show you, he had had an accident with a drumstick.

As I got older between my coat being flushed down the toilet and a child taking a pooh in my shoe at the swimming baths I came to realise something.

I would never ever fit in.

I tried God knows I tried so so hard, so desperate was I to have friends I would act like them, dress like them and to all intents and purposes blend in.

But I could and would come unstuck, as anyone who is fake will.

Each morning I would wake up and mentally plan out the responses I would give, the facial expressions and inflections on my tone the topics and phrases I would coin and use.

Yet my hobbies and differences made me an outcast.

I couldn’t rave about boy bands as I was to busy imagining myself riding in ‘The Wishing Chair’ by Enid Blyton or trying to stay concealed as a smuggler quietly whispering of skullduggery in one of the Famous Five books.

I automatically would go to wooded areas, trees were my friends and sun dappled crevices my sanctuary.

My parents knew to look for me somewhere concealed if we were out visiting.

My father worked as an interior designer and he had wealthy clients. I lived on a council estate with my mother, as far away from Mallory Towers and Daryl Rivers as I could ever be.

I remember going with him to a job he was on, a large barn conversion on a sprawling farm in an affluent area .The owners children were suspicious of me as I had a common accent to them and my clothes were not the same as there’s.

Still didn’t fit in yet again.

I found a paddock full of horses and beckoned over a beautiful fully grown black horse.

I balanced on the fence and climbed onto his back and rode him round the paddock bareback until the hysterical shouts of the owners brought me round the reality.

“Get off! Immediately!” They ordered. I still can’t till this day work out what I had done wrong, I was ten and had never ridden before, I thought I’d done a good job.

The owners children jeered at me telling me how stupid I was and what had made me think I could ride that horse anyway? I turned to the girl who was my age and wearing a lovely flowery short dress and told her that I hadn’t thought I could, I just did.

Then I pushed her into a large thatch of nettles.

My father was horrified and ear bashed me the whole way home, I was hurt as he seemed to understand me.

We would go for long nature rambles on Wimbledon Common, I would bury ‘treasure’ under the trees never remembering where it was to,dig it up the next time. We would hunt for toads and newts under the logs and I would come home with pockets full of creepy crawlies much to my mothers horror. I had a wooden house in the garden my father built me. I would rescue hurt pigeons, lame hedgehogs and housed a vicious long haired stray ginger Tom I named Chessy.

As the bullying at school intensified so did the rituals and obsessions I had at home.

As I flushed the toilet I would squirt down toilet duck to make bubbles. One square of toilet paper on top of the bubbles and one squirt of duck directly in the middle of the square.

Go to the bathroom to wash my hands and touch each tap six times.

I eventually found my niche, with the weird and wonderful crowd.

The kids that could not and would not ‘blend in’.

I tried again as I grew older.

I had children and knew enough to learn the lingo of the parents.

I’d observe behaviour I could not mentally fathom.

People I knew, mothers in the playground tearing each other to shreds then the next day friends again?

How?!

When I would question this I was told that I overreact and that people are allowed to argue and make up, they are allowed to wish the other dead and call them every name under the sun then be friends the next day. It’s what people do.

Is it? Not me. It’s incredible to me that people can argue time and time again then make up.

I have a cut off point where I cannot bring myself to care anymore, like an emotional shut down point that once activated can’t be undone.

Something I would actually not wish to change that makes me me.

I had and still do have a strange voice, it’s something I live with. It’s a mix of posh vs cockney with an accent that I’ve been asked through my life “Where do you come from? There’s something….”.

I’ve since learnt many autistics have an inflection to their voices and that has made sense to the repetitive speech I had and still do find comfort in. I also script, speak aloud to myself be it planning my day or the activity I’m then doing.

IMG_5523I look back after my diagnosis last May and wish I could go back in time.

That I could tell my teenage self that just because a boy says he likes you it doesn’t mean he loves you, that just because he sleeps with you it doesn’t mean he will marry you.

I wish I could tell myself at thirteen to put the Dettox and paracetamol down.

Not to think that because twelve girls had gathered at my front door for two days on the trot baying for my blood for dating the local heart throb that everything was lost.

I want to tell her that she will have incredible children, that she like everyone will make mistakes. That she’s not a freak or a weirdo that her rituals, the habitual chewing of her mouth that had her at the doctors aged four being told she would chew through her cheek was not because she’s strange.

That she’s autistic, that she has a communicational difference and yes she may feel like she’s in a film all the time playing a role with a script she’s not privy to.

That she’s outside everything that she is part of nothing and has no one.

That she’s amazing and the stubbornness and bullheaded personality she has will one day be put to use as an autism advocate.

That she belongs to a neuro diverse community that she adores, that she’s very much inside it and that she has her children who make her….well that just it .

They

Make

Me.

7.10.15

Statement regarding ADN.


Statement regarding ADN.

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It is with regret that I announce my writing for Autism Daily Newscast has come to an end.
The recent embargo has made it impossible to continue as the campaign work I do requires me to write articles and raise awareness on autistic mistreatments ie MMS GcMAF and expose the people who profit from this heinous torturous exploitation of the vulnerable.
It has been a pleasure writing for them and I wish them all the best.
My articles will be available to read on my website autisticate.com, Autistic Abuse Awareness and Autistic Rights Together

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